Wednesday, December 29, 2010

It's about time

It's a cold and wet rainy December day today and I'm trying to start one of my New Years resolutions a bit earlier this a better blogger.  To be honest with you I've neglected this little online diary of mine because I've...we've had another heartbreaking loss.  In late November I found out that I was pregnant again and in early December I had another miscarriage.  I never imagined I would even have one miscarriage, but now I've had two.  I felt like this time it didn't sting or hurt as I thought.  Lots of family and friends check on me and made sure I was okay...I told them I was fine and I really thought I was and then  a couple weeks later while taking a bath I fell apart.  It felt so good to just cry.  I had no idea where it came from and it kind of felt like an out of body experience.  During the middle of my "pity party for one"  Scott walked in to brush his teeth and found me weeping in the bath tub.  He got down one his knees put his arms around me, sleeves wet and said nothing...he just held me.  I love that man.  We are not sure what God has planned for us, but we know we having many blessing to be thankful for...number 1 being the precious little boy that's currently sleeping upstairs in his crib. 

I want to wish all of you a Happy New Year's with many blessings.  I have several posted lined up so be on the look out.



1 comment:

Laura said...

I'm sorry sis. I can't imagine how hard it is. I'll pray for your strength to get through this hard time and to have faith in God. He does have a plan for you and your family. Love you.