Monday, February 2, 2009

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a MomI made and ate hot meals.I had unstained clothing.I had quiet conversations on the phone.Before I was a Mom,I slept as late as I wantedAnd never worried about how late I got into bed.I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.Before I was MomI cleaned my house each day.I never tripped over toys or forgot words of lullabies.Before I was a MomI didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.I never thought about immunizations.Before I was a MomI had never been puked onPooped onSpit onChewed onPeed onOr pinched by tiny fingersBefore I was a MomI had complete control of:My thoughtsMy bodyAnd my mind.I slept all night.Before I was a MomI never held down a screaming childSo that doctors could do testsOr give shots.I never looked into teary eyes and cried.I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.Before I was a MomI never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.I never felt my heart break into a million piecesWhen I couldn't stop the hurt.I never knew that something so smallCould affect my life so much.I never knew that I could love someone so much.I never knew I would love being a Mom.Before I was a MomI didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.I didn't know that something so smallCould make me feel so important.Before I was a MomI had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okayI had never known the warmthThe joyThe loveThe heartacheThe wonderOr the satisfaction of being a Mom.I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

1 comment:

Stephanie said...

This is so true. I love the part about wearing your heart outside your body. I never thought about it that way but it is so true!